i have time.
i need to chill the fuck out.
i know. i know. i know!
i agree wholeheartedly.
i've been making a valiant (at least what i believe to be valiant) effort to relax, kick back, and just take everything day by day. however, i can't help but feel this certain amount of anxiety. i need to get my ducks in row! or is it line? who knows. i don't like ducks. they're loud, annoying, and they freak me out.
excuse me, i digress ...
anyway ...
it's probably not helping that we're already halfway through 2011 and i still have yet to plan my next move. questions looming ...
where do i move?
when do i move?
where should i go in january?
when am i going to visit london?
should i just stay in korea till after stephany gets married?
why the hell is everyone getting married in 2012?
will i ever get married?
do i really come off as emotionless to everyone?
can i really run that half marathon in june?
what's the big plan?
will i ever finish my portfolio?
do i even want to work on my portfolio?
do i even want to stay in architecture?
do i want to be underpaid and overworked forever?
is it time for a career change?
can i hack it in fashion?
do i want to start all over again?!
does that mean i have to move to new york city?
do i want to live in a tiny cramped apartment with a roommate i'll inevitably hate?
when am i going to have the time to travel the world if i'm starting all over again?!
what's the right thing to do?
just a sampling of the questions hanging out and causing a ruckus up in my brain. they haunt my dreams ... not really. but that's quite a lot to think about. maybe it's time to actually start answering some of them.
don't worry. this isn't me taking a dive into the dark lake of depression. i'm just trying to figure things out. what really makes me happy? after all, that's what i, what everybody, wants in the end. right?
to just be happy. =)
where do i move? Chicago
ReplyDeletewhen do i move? when you realize you can't take it anymore
where should i go in january? home
when am i going to visit london? January
should i just stay in korea till after stephany gets married? only if you think you won't go crazy living there til then
why the hell is everyone getting married in 2012? you're at THAT age
will i ever get married? yes, if you want to
do i really come off as emotionless to everyone? not everyone - just to people who only know you on a surface level
can i really run that half marathon in june? yes
what's the big plan? not to have one
will i ever finish my portfolio? yes, if you want to
do i even want to work on my portfolio? probably not
do i even want to stay in architecture? if you have to question it, probably not
do i want to be underpaid and overworked forever? definitely not
is it time for a career change? not quite yet
can i hack it in fashion? do you know the right people?
do i want to start all over again?! it'll be difficult
does that mean i have to move to new york city? definitely not
do i want to live in a tiny cramped apartment with a roommate i'll inevitably hate? let's not kid ourselves, you'll probably end up being bffs with your roommate
when am i going to have the time to travel the world if i'm starting all over again?! right after you quit your first life
what's the right thing to do? there is no such thing as right
When you find the answers, let me know please.
ReplyDeleteyou can hack it in fashion. you can hack it anywhere. and i'm not talking about karen's loogies... amiright?
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